Zombies and Love

Later that week, February 21, we decided to watch a movie at my apartment. We first went and got pizza and pop...so romantic. Derrick picked out 'A Kight's Tale', which we watched for about 10 minutes until my roommate and her sister and her sisters boyfriend came busting in. They came to the apartment to watch a movie, World War Z! Seeing this as an opportunity to pull out my, "Oh I'm so scared" , tactics I quickly told them to switch the movie and take a seat. About 10 minutes into the movie I pretended to be scared and grabbed his hand. (He disputes with me and says I really was scared, but I had seen the movie a few times before). Luckily he responded better than I did on the ski lift to my flirting and quickly put his arm around me and held onto my hand. Beginning that night I don't think we went a day without seeing each other. I felt happier than I ever had. I got to spend time with a man you was not only my crush for a long time, but he was also one of my best friends.

Devotional Mishaps

After our skiing date he asked me if I wanted to go with him to devotional. Of course I said yes! This was it, this was confirmation he liked me. Everyone knows at BYU-I that if a boy asks you to go to devo with them they like you. As we were walking to devotional together he was telling me how he went rock climbing last night with some other girl. I thought to myself, wait a minute you went skiing with me yesterday. Then I remembered how when we got to his house he seemed rushed and seemed like he was trying to get me to leave. I was trying to figure an answer to why he would have pushed me out the door to go rock climbing with another girl. So I quickly asked him if he went for FHE? He said, "No it was a group date". WHAT? A group date? I was a little crushed. So again I was sitting there thinking that I was just his friend, and that's what he saw me as.

While we sat in devotional and I kept wondering where I sat in his priorities he still seemed to be flirting with me. I jokingly linked my arm through his for some reason, and then quickly un-linked as I realized I was having physical contact with the guy I liked, but I couldn't have him knowing that! As I wondered if he realized, he quickly said, "no it's okay", and re linked our arms. He kept it that way through the whole devotion. This may sound so dumb to normal people who are good at flirting, but to me this was a pretty good sign that he did like me! Even if he did just take another girl out. :)

Things Start Rolling

Things started changing the end of January and the first of February. Derrick took me to Iron man 2 at the cheap theater one night. I was complaining my hands were cold (apparently this is a tactic of very good flirting girls, I am not one of those and had no clue). Derrick, hearing this, thought I was flirting so he moved his hand over, palm up, to hold my hand. I, still being a blonde, was thinking, uhm that looks like he wants to hold my hand....QUICK make him realize I don't! So I put the back of my hand on the back of his hand for a split second. I told him I was going to warm my hands up under the faucet water of the bathroom. I ran in the bathroom and just looked in the mirror super shocked. "Did that really happen?" That's when I first thought, well maybe he does like me.

After that night we started hanging out more. Most the time I went to his apartment to hang out. He once suggested we watch a movie. I quickly agreed and reached for the flicker to change the TV to find a movie. He looked at me and said, well maybe we could watch a movie on my Ipad instead. He was so smooth! So of course to see the small screen we had to sit very close on the couch. The next time we watched a movie he got me a blanket....well that's what I thought. But being the sneaky little guy he is, we ended up sharing the blanket. You may be wondering if I was really that dense....yes, yes I was. I had liked Derrick for so long and many times I thought he liked me only to find out he thought we were just friends. Even after watching movies sitting closely on the couch sharing a blanket and him playing footsies with me, I just was not sure.

Then came February 14th. Yup, valentines day. By this time I had a good idea that he slightly liked me. That night I was babysitting when he texted me and asked if we could do something. I was so excited! I told him that we could as soon as I got done babysitting. Once I finished babysitting I was driving back into Rexburg. I texted him quickly so I could maybe just meet him at his apartment instead of driving to mine. I told him I really wanted some ice cream (hint hint come with me hint hint). He jokingly said, "well then go get some." I however did not know it was a joke and I was devastated! It felt like a knife to the heart. I went back to my apartment and cried to my roommates. I texted him back and told him he had been rude. He obviously was joking and replied no I wasn't. Instead of texting him  I called my mom and told her the whole story. The next morning I decided to go home. (I didn't want to tell derrick because he had asked me to possibly go to a party with him later that weekend). With my sisters advice I didn't text him at all until Sunday morning. It was the best text I have ever gotten. Derrick apologized for being rude. He apologized when I was the one that read it wrong. At that moment it just enforced to me what a wonderful man he was. He asked me if I would come back and go skiing with him on Monday. 

I came back that Friday and met him at his house. We went to Kelly Canyon, I skied and he boarded. We had a great time and even saw/talked with Jessica Jensen, an Olympic athlete from Idaho. More specifically she is Derrick's neighbor. Again Derrick tried to pull some moves on me, but I was completely dense and did not respond accordingly. As we were getting on the chair lift, Derrick had to put his arm on the back of the chair to get on. It's not a huge deal, he had done it every time we had gotten on the chair lift. But then he moved his arm down from the bar and put it on my side. I, being an IDIOT, felt his hand on my side and stiffened up like a board and said nothing. I looked straight forward trying to ignore the fact that this guy who I had liked for so long was trying to pull a move on me! I may have been absolutely still and sober as he had his arm so lovingly around me, but my mind was running a million miles a minute. My mind was screaming, "What do I do?". 

He saw this whole situation a lot differently. We were talking and having a great time on the lift. Now was the perfect time to slip my hand around her waist and pull her in to lovingly sit on the ski lift together. (He does this.) 'Oh no she quit talking, her back stiffened up, she isn't saying anything! Does she even know my hand is there, can she feel it through the layers of coats? Yeah she definitely knows it's there she hasn't said a word and won't look at me! Oh no this is not going well. ABORT ABORT!" (Well at least this is what I bet he was thinking)

And abort is what he did. He quickly pulled his hand back onto the bar behind me and we pretended nothing happened. :) Poor guy, I was the hardest girl to flirt with. I'm glad he kept to it.  

The Beginning

I've decided to create this blog to remember the great times that Derrick and I have had, are having and will have. It should be fun!! :) I wanted to back track for a bit and remember the great times that derrick and I had while being friends and dating.

It all started the day I saw the new hires coming into the Biomat Plasma Center in the Fall of 2012. I had been working at the plasma center for a year as a phlebotomist. That day, I saw two very handsome boys walk in. I had remembered one of my old coworkers (Derrick's older brother) say his little brother was going to start working at the plasma center, but I didn't know if either of these boys were his little brother. As time went on I got to know both the new hires and became friends with both. For some reason though, one of the guys stood out. I apparently called my mom and talked to her about this one boy named....duh duh duh....Derrick! I told her that he was super hot and how nice he was. She asked me if I was going to go for him, and, I being the very uncoordinated nerdy person I was (and am), I replied with, "oh no mother! He is the type of guy you would marry not just date!".

As the months went on Derrick and I became friends, going out for ice cream, helping each other with homework, andddd talking about other girls :(. Unfortunately, or fortunately, our work place has a gossip ring the size of Saturn; and Derrick was told I liked him. So knowing he knew he liked me and he still talked to me about other girls, I had to come to the decision of either being a friend or not being around at all. I realized I rather be friends with derrick than lose the opportunity of a great friendship. Although there were times I wanted to punch him, it was still the best decision ever. We had a great group of friends from the plasma center and ended up having a ton of fun.

In the spring of 2013 I decided to go to Mexico on a school tour. So I quit the plasma center and drove to SLC to fly to Mexico. Derrick had been texting me through the day. I can remember getting on the plane in Houston, Texas. It would be the last time I had service. I remember feeling so sad that I had to say good bye to him for a "whole" month. We were just friends, but I still slightly liked him. I mean how could I not! He is a catch :)

When I returned we caught up with each other and were friends just like always. And just like always we talked about other girls. I had made up my mind that this was okay and that if we weren't meant to be then I would be a good friend and hope he found an amazing girl. It wasn't until about August 2013 that I visited Rexburg, and of course hung out with derrick. He offered to drive to Idaho Falls, with me, to pick out some jeans for my cousin who was at EFY in Rexburg. We were driving down the highway with the sun setting and we were both dancing and singing to the radio. It was at this time that I realized how lucky I was to have a best friend like him.

I started school that fall and we were friends like usual. It wasn't until half way through the semester that we seemed to just stopped seeing each other. I was in the Paramedic Program and he was busy with school, work, basketball, and girls. Suddenly we reconnected in December...right before I went home for Christmas break :(.

We continued to talk throughout the break and were as close of friends as always. I however could not hold up my charade of not liking him. I came to the point where I decided I would quit trying to say the things I thought he wanted to hear, and just be me. I started making a point to ask him to do things, told him how I felt about the type of girls he kept going for, and being honest. And apparently it worked. :)